On Valentine’s Day, I walked into our bedroom and a bird flew up in my face. He panicked, back and forth fluttering off the walls. I quickly opened a window and guided him out. But that’s not the end of the story. This bird has spent every day, for the last five weeks, pecking relentlessly against the windows of our cottage. I can hear his repetitive tapping even now.
Some believe when a bird flies into a house it is a port
ent of death. Is he a messenger from the spirit world? What is he trying to tell me?
The day the bird arrived was the day my dear friend, mentor, and spiritual teacher, Dewa Nyoman Batuan, died. I met Batuan when I was twenty-four. He welcomed me into his village compound in Bali and was my host for nearly a year. Even though he was very poor, he shared his house, food, and knowledge with me. We’ve watched each other grow for over forty years. He book-ended most of my adult life.
I returned to Bali over twenty times and Batuan was always my first stop. But often he beat me to it. Wherever I stayed he would always find me, his face beaming and his arms outstretched. We’d walk through the rice fields or sit for hours nursing our glasses of Bali coffee made simply with hot water and coffee grounds. He would talk enthusiastically about spiritual connections he’d made and soon pull out his mandala paintings to punctuate his impromptu lecture. “Why do I paint mandalas?” he asked. “Because it can hold everything. Earth, air, fire, water, ether, animals and people.” He work expressed his quest for enlightenment, made his life more beautiful and let him enjoy learning, practicing and passing it along.
A month after Fate first drew me into his village he set up Pengosaken Community of Painters. His idea was that a handful of master painters could teach children and teenagers to provide much needed income for the village. The proceeds from sales would go back to the community, which in those days before the island’s over-development was how everything worked: community first, then family. Thinking about yourself first was unheard of.
Batuan’s generosity was unlimited. He was always giving. He was a schoolteacher, community organizer, and for many years, the head of the village. A traditional but also a modern man, he was able to discriminate between the values of each. I may have been among the first Westerners to meet Batuan, but over the years his reputation became international and he befriended artists of all kinds. Even though he and his wife raised six children and had seventeen grandchildren, and even though his spiritual devotions meant spending much of his day in temple duties, he was never without several canvases in progress. Over the decades, I watched his compound overflow with an endless stream of kaleidoscopic mandalas which he painted whether tourists bought them or not. (But many did; both Queen Elizabeth and Ronald Reagan valued and hung his paintings.) More about Batuan
In 2009, I published an art book of his life’s work called Mandalas of Bali: Our Place in the World
I was very fortunate that my young eyes were opened by Batuan’s genuine concern for my unfolding. His spirit was, and still is, an inspiration to me…and as persistent as that little bird tapping at my window, “Don’t forget me”.
Guest post by Michael Wiese who is a publisher and filmmaker.
My deepest sympathies on your loss. Death and separation can feel so painful. Has your teacher visited you since? In my book “Diamond Lantern” I described how birds flew indoors to announced the death of 3 different friends and acquaintances. Every day, birds scared me because I associated them with death. One day, I realized that my bird experience had heightened my awareness. Because of that, I began to see spirits. Because of that, I realized the spirits were trying to teach me something. Until finally, twenty years later, I overcame my fear of death, opened-up a chanel of communication with my spiritual teacher from beyond the grave, and today receive far greater lessons. It’s likely Dewa Nyoman Batuan continues to visit you.
Wishing you Light & Love, Elizabeth, diamondlantern.com
I remember my grandmother sharing a similar belief in butterflies announcing the passing of a loved one. I know there was more behind that but I was just a little girl when I heard about it. I feel blessed having the certainty that we are more than this physical body and that our soul transcends times, space and death.
My mom 98 living alone still cooks so clear in her thinking. I’m the youngest in her all kids. I still see her positive attitude towards life of her and others. She is old but her thinking is still young. She was a fighter of her odds. Those odds were not odds they were her God’s in all kinds. I saw with her and still see with her. Everything God did we are being done never blamed anyone. No blame no complaints. Wait and see for your why’s? She always answered her why’s telling God knows if He can’t how can l!!
I am happy to read your letter. My mother is 75 years old and diabetic patient depending our joint famili members ( particular on me ) for her necessities such as bath, eating etc., My father is 85 yrs old and suffering with leg pains slightly, but he can work his necissities. They both has no positive attitude and no clear ideas about life as your mom. I appreciate for your writing about your mon with affectionately.